roaar hatehate kill kill

@hw.

i need braces. i don't want braces. period.

but it's all GOOD cuz i'm done (=.

speent 5 hours on the timeline =_=. BUT ITSKAAAAY. now it's time to relax until it's time to study again, which woon't be long.

oh no, i think that defies what i said of NOT BREEZING EACH DAY THROUGH.

._.

tomorrow's the last day of january.
made it through each day of this first month. clean record. squeaky clean. let's keep it that way.

knockwooood.

decided.

wished. and hoped.

and two days later, my mind is switched. i have got to learn to be sure of myself, of my decisions. of what i decided! well now my plan is ruined and i'm back to box one--staying in all my clubs.. -___- when i totally decided to just quit til next semester. but noo, now i find out CSF counts on apps as long as you paid, wtf? what kinda unfairness and stupid reasoning is that? paying to get some extracirrcularness.. but i guess i'll still do it. : $$$$$$$ ): must save $ and earn some. who wants a $20 barnes and nobles giftcard? i'll sellll it for 30. JUST KIDDDING. i'll probably need it for sat's and crap.
ugh, i hate thinking about those stuff. =_=.

but anyway.

i've decided FOR SURE now that instead of being distracted from homework, i'm gonna make homework my distraction. (= you can't ever get distracted from your distraction, right? ;).

The first step to ending distraction

is to think that the distraction is boring and uninteresting and ohmgoaaah nothing to do (=.

well, not working so well for me.. but it's okay.

i have too many blogs to disperse my bored-of-studying mood on. D:

only a distraction.

Won't last long.

HAHA, kbye nonexistent stalkers. back to studying!

oh miss woods, see what you've done to me? one extra blog to play with now.

and btw, FIONA = DONE WITH JLCBLOGGING as of yesterday, 1-24-2010. (; Proud, muchhhhhh. It's about time I get back on top of things, like I'm supposed to be. No more breezing through and just making it through each day, waiting for an end. Started this sophomore year with a lazy and BAD start. Well..lazier than I should be, since others might not say so..It's about time the old Fiona comes back. (=

always gonna live in your shadow.

what a surprise.
rain again tomorrow.

I LIKE BANANAS.

i need a hobby, but don't want one.
no, i want a hobby, but can't find any of interest.
i'd really much rather spend my time watching dramas; fake lives of fake characters. i get so into it. .

Officially Transforming into a Photoblog.

feel an urge to make a Wretch, I don't know why.
taking more and more pictures. turning out better. my camera behaves more now. in terms of quality. iloveyoucamerababy<3>

and for some reason, i started to stop smiling at the camera and just glare at it. model look perhaps. ha, ha, ha. no.

geez, am i really a pessimistic person? are pessimistic people necessarily unhappy? or is it sometimes just realistic to not think so brightly, but to think in terms of the real world? but the real world is so ugly. anyone thinking realistically would be "pessimistic."

and i gotta admit. leaving expectations lower leave less room for disappointment.

is there a direct relationship between pessimism and happiness, then?

=_=.

You are unbelievable.

dear . . .

You asked me if I were feeling any better.
I'm not even sick. You are.
Take care.
Homework is definitely not an excuse to keep myself in my room all the time.



Gah, I miss you.

internet restriction on myself

Ended today. (=. I think it's kinda funny how a lotta people aren't on, or, are on, but are all studying for finals. Weeell, guesss what guys. I'm pretty much done![; I think I failed math ):. Felt so good to chill baackkk today. Semester breaak, here I come! Even though I can't go sushi with them (as predicted) I am still looking forward to two days of RELAXATION, stressfreebaby. I overstress too much. My whole life. Have you ever met a kid who's stressed herself out since elementary school? That'll be me.. so I think I'm having an early senioritis this year. Two years early. Lack of sleep this week. Sleeping way past bedtime (rofl, I am so bad ;D HAHA.) every night; pluuuus waking up earlier this morning to study, siiince the English team left at 10 last night. Or at least Diana did.
Aha, I like the idea of having so many blogs scattered throughout and typing different ideas throughout. Like you can never know the entire me. Ooh, so mysterious.
It's so weird typing in AIM o_o. I mean, everything's the same, but it felt weird when I first saw those green little letters creep out on my window, ahahahaha. NICE DESCRIPTIVE LANGUAGEEEE, LOL. I don't know who I'm talking to on here. Hi, diary. :).

knockknockimhere.tumblr.com
xanga.com/cinnamorolly_fionax3

if you wanna stalk out my whole mind, that is.