meet my biological sister and my second unrelated sister.
like an extra pair of chill parents or some extra friends with a different relationship. the type of friends to bring you happiness w/o knowing every single detail, what with girls or boys, troubles of any sort. but they're there, and the laughter i share with them is different from what i share with friends or anyone else. :D.
but sometimes i feel like iwant to share part of that inner life with you guys. i know you guys know. sometimes i want to hear advice from you guys.
haha, i no longer have to hide what i know, and i feel proud that i know something, lol! that we can discuss these matters now. i feel omniscious. all knowing. and most of all, trusted. ;).
and at the same time it brought upon more regrets in my life.
i like how we can talk again, even if it does revolve around only those subjects.
i like how we can talk about the past now with no sense of awkwardness, like ooold friends giggling about silly past stories.
i like how you talked to me right after i kinda blogged about missing someone, privately. at the same time, it's kinda scary.. i would not want you reading those posts.
i feel unbounded now. rarely do i backspace what i type to you.
but why is internet taking over lives?
everything is just so easy here. you say what you want, and backspace it as quickly as you want.
you could easily abandon conversations. but at the same time people (both people you like and dislike) could easily get ahold of you.
you could talk about things with less awkwardness as if you said it in person.
you could hide your emotions, so, so easily, but it'd also mean you don't see that other person's emotions.
one smiley face or one laughoutloud changes the tone.
but you can't catch details sometimes because of those distractions.
you could talk to so many people at once. you could multitask.
on instantmessaging, the things you say TECHNICALLY disappear into thin air unless someone saves it. nobody eavesdrops (unless someones overreading or you type in the wrong box)
all this allows for convenience but also lack of communication.
sometimes i wish i could shut myself from the internet and interact only in person, so i don't have to worry about everything so much.
