what happened.

Is it the New Year? (Am I having an off year again..)

Is it exhaustion?

Is it laziness?

Or am I just being human...?

Well please, I beg of you, Fiona. This is not the time to be human. You must be superhuman. Amaze yourself, amaze others. You have to do this.

Push. Push harder than delivering a baby. You know you have to. For yourself, for pride, for success, for proving others wrong, whatever. Just. You can't lose it now. Not now, not ever.

Is this the feeling of satisfaction?

Feeling of confidence?

Feeling of accomplishment?

Feeling of WOW?

Because it seems so familiar. Like that feeling of invincibility I had not too long ago, but quite long ago. That feeling I failed to feel for a really long time. That feeling I missed, almost forgot.

I love it.

And I hope my feelings do not fail me this time.

In need of energy.

I hate Mondays.

I'm always so laazy and unproductive and distracted.

Not good not good.

I've GAWT to stop.

after 4 days of relaxing, it's time i get myself back into schoolmode, into workmode.

no. more. distractions.

so aim, you're outta my life again until thanksgiving.

i was right.

=__= i gotta stay away.

reminisce

everytime, once it strikes around 12:30 am, i get into a little nostalgic mood. especially after reading E.B. White's Once More to the Lake.. oh. =_+

i miss summer and hong kong and those days of fun.

Woooow guys.

It's been half a year since I've been on here.

I laugh at myself talking about being busy last year.

This weekend was my lazy weekend though. SAT Reasoning is over with (for the timebeing), and I need 2 more subject tests to take. Finals are coming up soon, and this time, I don't have xmas break to study over. Well I guess it's good for xmas break, but that also means I should start reviewing now..
When does this ever stop?

...

since when did i stop looking forward to relaxing but instead to hurry up and finish my work so i can move on to something else..?